Of Saints and Shadows

At the furthest edge of the world There lies my soul Warm and safe Wrapped up in your embrace You hold to it tight I couldn't ask you for more This is all I've wanted Keep it safe Keep it loved Until that day I can find my way back Home To you

Where to run When there's no place left to run No room to hide And no excuses can be made Who do you run to When there's no one left And if there was How would I even get there

Forgiveness From me comes so easily You've come to expect it But now you wait You don't know why I made my bed, now I sleep You don't understand You wait for forgiveness Ask why it isn't forthcoming I tell you You ask for the impossible I can't do what you ask You didn't give me what I need You couldn't I asked for the impossible Forgiveness is no longer

Life has always been this way You cannot control the changing tide I can't have this I try to hate you Tried so very hard before I only have this single tear My proof of happiness once seen

Am I worth so little to you? To treat me so callously Was anything you said true? I never told a lie Never Not until the very end You asked if I was mad Mad at your treatment Your casual dismissal Your choice But it was your choice to make I can't even work up the energy To feel anything Beyond indifference and pain

You compare me to something I can never be Hold me up against the light Hold me up against the world Feel regret that I'm different I can never make you happy Make you proud There's always been something inside of me that you despise I cannot change I wouldn't for you I refuse Why would I want that If you couldn't love who I was I doubt you could love who I became Compare me to everyone else Because you think I'm less That I don't deserve more You make me tired You make me hate You couldn't have told me you hated me more in any other way.

There’s a creature inside of you that I’m not good enough to bring out, not strong enough to reach. I sometimes have the feeling you’ve been here a long time, more than one lifetime, and that you’ve dwelt in private places none of the rest of us has even dreamed about. You frighten me, even though you’re gentle with me. If I didn’t fight to control myself with you, I feel like I might lose my center and never get back.... (9) His eyes looked directly at her, and she felt something jump inside. The eyes, the voice, the face, the silver hair, the easy way he moved his body, old ways, disturbing ways, ways that draw you in. Ways that whisper to you in the final moment before sleep comes, when the barriers have fallen. Ways that rearrange the molecular space between male and female, regardless of species.... (33) The old dreams were good dreams, they didn’t work out, but I’m glad I had them.... (51) This is why I’m here on this planet, at this time, Francesca. Not to travel or make picture

deep inside in the part of me that's stupid and shallow I wonder if maybe you're embarrassed to be seen with me

Down on my knees Make me plead Beg me for more Touch That’s all I need from you Kiss me here Take me now Passion burns fierce Hot It will always be this way A fire in my eyes You see to my heart Do you think we’ll be discovered It’s hard to say Maybe tomorrow we’ll know Maybe tomorrow will be different We will be somewhere else Different and changing Two matched souls We will never be apart Passion in every touch Time is nothing Everything.

I can’t pretend that everything is alright It’s alright No matter what we do We can’t find happiness So why is it that the closest I’ve come is when I’m with you Compromise You tell me Not with words You didn’t know But it only works both ways

You set yourself up Make me believe Lies don’t exist here Not for us Not tonight Did they ever? The gentle warmth of your skin Breathe deeply Dream of a perfect blue Soft Sweet But violence in dreams Calm and passion A collision of truths Let me know which to believe Here I trust you

His face had moved so close to hers that all she could see were the deep hazel of his eyes. He moved and she could feel the warmth of his breath in her ear and down the length of her neck as he whispered to her. “There is only you. You’re my soul and without you I’d die. You’re my drug. I was hooked from the first moment I tasted you. Nothing else, no one else could ever compare to what you are to me.” Their kiss was everything they were: passion, hunger, danger, possession, tenderness, excitement, lust, love. The dim recollection that they were still in a public place prevented any further events, but the promise of later hung between them. “I’ve never doubted you.” extracted from 'The Bright End of Nowhere' (my own work. not posted on this site.)