Of Saints and Shadows

Swiftly moving through the sky Dark blots of opalescent blue Fall like tears They won’t come Can’t be forced out Not now Not anymore For the time of tears has past Gone with the infinite hope Of a world holding rose colored glasses It was hope that saved us But hope that drowned us in the end Full of good intent To say I am here holds infinite measure To be defined as one sees fit But I am not here Not in a place that holds any pretense Of rosy-ness

You whisper a lullaby In order to calm But that was never the point You can’t take away the damage No rose colored glasses here This world is only black and white Though some may try To make you believe Make believe The crack running through your soul Only allows the darkness in A filter for all the pain and torment You endure Can you tell me how it feels? I can’t tell anymore Not since this silence Overtook Do you know what it’s like on the inside? I couldn’t say I’ve always been on the outside Now I’ve come to find comfort In the darkness At least there nothing hurts Nothing cuts

Darkness blooms on the horizon You can’t tell me anything Anymore And expect me to believe Alone It’s what I’ve always known You can’t change that I wasn’t meant for this Sadness envelopes me It’s a cold embrace You can’t change that And apparently neither could I

You told me In love and death But something wasn’t right Little white lies Cut deeper than you think Bleed red Darkness Runs like a river from your scars And paints your world with hurt I don’t deserve this It’s not something I can handle You tell me Endure

Your so cold But a warmth against my skin The only place I have known Comfort and safety Here I seek your embrace In the coldness and ambiguity Of the darkness You keep me safe And loved But you love everyone Just the same Your cold hand of death I feel as the warm hand of a lover A lover you have been And soon I will leave with you In the pale morning light When the dark fades Darkness will envelope

You left with dignity and fortitude But came back On hands and knees With tear stained eyes You hung your head And took it all All, because it was all you You could hope for I took everything You gave up everything you had And still you try Giving up more than you have Just to make it right You can't make it right I take it all Take it all in Hide it from the light And watch the slow death It proceeds You dug your hole And still you dig Deeper even still How to get out from here You don't even bother to think

Well, this would be the start of another wonderful space for the posting of my inane, if somewhat sporadic thoughts. Mostly I think this space will be used to post my random, and sometimes, far between works of writing. I am by no means a professional writer but I'd like somewhere to post my stuff rather than leave it to sit on my computer. And maybe a little bit of constructive criticism.