Numb

I see no beauty
Staring back
Only a darkness I can’t contend

To drown my sorrows
Such a thing impossible to me
Burdened to forever see the truth as it may come

No love to ever claim as my own
I am the place men go when in between
Waning years
Between what is fake and what is truth

Those pretty lies
Oh, only one more night
But I can’t claim that
It is not for me
Not my right

Alone, always alone in this world
I walk a darkening path
The truth you could have told me
Though it would have broken me

These false truths break and destroy everything
All that was left
There is nothing
No savior but myself
I can’t save myself
I am too far gone

The tears I cry I always say will be my last
Why is that never true?

Don’t you hear me?
Of course you don’t

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