Of Saints and Shadows

It was like you saw through me Broke apart the layers With dark hazel eyes It should have been easier to breathe Things are always easier in theory I will stay a while longer But I will only say this once

Fog blankets the city Beautiful Silent and warm Your arms, my blanket My warmth Safety and peace The world so full of color Red is my favorite Reminds me of these quiet mornings Here we sleep With languid breathes Slow, deliberate movements We’ll go outside tomorrow

You tell me I don’t understand That I couldn’t I’ve heard this before Heard the arguments that follow this statement This truth Perhaps I don’t understand I have never had what you claim to So how should I know how much it hurts? But you forget You were never in my shoes You couldn’t understand everything because of what you have You can’t muster the empathy

You went away again today Goodbye Those words we spoke The familiar few I know them all now Play them in my thoughts Throughout the night like a dark opera When will you be back? I don’t know if I expect you to Should I await this fated return? Maybe despise it When will it be my turn to find what I lost?

I can only blame myself But that’s not right I should hurt you too Should I be able to blame you more? Sad eyes Bright smile Which is the truth? Choose the easier lie Reality is easier to swallow when coated with sugar Like the honey dipped words That flow past your lips in an amber haze

Pretty girl with the green eyes Why so sad, darling? Didn’t think I saw that tear? Got away from you did it? Your façade is wearing thin I see those cracks In your age old mask Let me in Let me hold you up Comfort you My shoulder is strong Let my warm arms protect Fight against those monsters under the bed Tell me your secrets Tell me your pain I won’t forget I won’t hurt I’m only here for you I want to see that smile My heart’s desire Those sparkling green eyes Won’t you be happy for me?

The decision taken from my hands Of course there was opportunity There were also limitations I didn't notice Behind the veil where fate conspires That it would all turn out like this It's all just such a disappointment I can only blame myself But there were two of us here Maybe I'll blame you a little Truely, I wanted this and more Don't deny those of us who must relearn to dream

I like how you pretend That the end will be the end If you could laugh I'd love you If I could smile at everything you said We could be laughing lovers